Sometimes instead of pale faces all I can see are ghosts Hunched over asking not to feed them Crawling steadily toward oblivion Someone asked me if I wanted to die I said If that means living without having to lie, if it means laying with my brother and sister in the dirt Because I feel as though I'd be better suited as a tree, or something that won't get hurt Something that can't hear the pain in a voice that screams, something that's more sturdy, that seems to always know what it means When my mom left me I didn't do anything but look out a window expecting her to return I guess I do the same thing for you now, like waiting for a mailman or a storm you'd seen predicted on your television set That terrible feeling a child gets waiting for his mac and cheese to boil, chomping at the bit You can't really define a feeling like so, you can only capture for yourself and hope to god he'll let it go Release you like the sins you've committed, if they're ever released As if there's anything more than cells in a delicate system that nature spun out Who could listen to all the voices in pain before they go to bed and eat, asking to be granted with health or to feel less hunger underneath All your thoughts are actually ghosts, like you dissolving at they run their course, not touching anything thats real, anything with substance that you can feel And in that blankness don't ask to be heard, don't waste a word