its not that i don't want to fall in love
because there are times when i do
i just do not like the idea of getting so attached to something
and then it actually hurt when they are taken away
i don't like the idea that my heart could be broken
by someone i trusted enough to let into it
i don't want to cry myself to sleep one night
because i go to close to someone
and in the end they not feel the same
i want to feel all the pleasures of love
all the feelings that come with that storm
but the aftermath is what scares me
and that is why i keep my distance
the ruins of what was one us
diminished by false hope
and i will run
and i will run
and i will run
until im far way from the love that is being given to me
i will blind myself so i can not see him standing in front of me
ready to love me
because what if it doesn't work
what if ii get hurt
or worse
what is he does
i am a guarded being
and it seems no matter how high you climb
and how hard you push
my walls are to hard to get around
and i don't want him to feel bad because i did not let him in
i will let no one in