No new reasons. Just a broken heart that has never healed. No new problem to be added to the list. Just a list of problems that has yet been solved. Breaks unable to mend.
I'm drowning in my own self loathing. Dying in hatred. Hatred of all my choices. Including the choices I make to cope.
With my ruby red lips. Tear soaked cheeks. Makeup smeared eyes. Messy hair curtaining down.
The wish of a bottle pressed to my lips. The wish of a blade pressed to my skin. The wish of a cigarette in my hand. The wish of a pill resting on my tongue. The wish to forget what it is I'm doing.