sometimes it breaks me
one word or phrase
a song
sends me right back to where i was
3 months ago
6 months ago
a year
and i find myself breaking
all over again

i long to feel something
some outward pain
instead of what you’ve caused
instead of my heart
being ripped in two
with your betrayal and lies

there’s a painful numbness in reliving
the words you breathed
between lying lips
and the scalding touch
you left on my heart and my body

when i bandage my bleeding wounds
it’s simple
and gives me relief
because i can see those scars
i can trace them and remember
to stop letting you in

the ones on my heart aren’t so easy to bear

have i become addicted
to feeling nothing
or feeling everything
there is no in between