i ****** up

i moved on without understanding
the misunderstandings that we share
are our only understandings

i ****** up
i lied to you
and him

i lied
i ****** up

i didnt mean for this to happen.
it will untangle,
i hope.

it's okay.
the future is still bright,
right?

but i still ****** up.
i can't escape from that truth.

i told you that i didnt,
and i have kept secrets from him.

please forgive me.
i am deeply sorry from the depth of my black, inky soul.