I spent to much time thinking about what I was missing from the past and never stopped to think that I had all I needed here with me in my present and would have been my future if I would have stopped and just opened my eyes instead I blinded myself and left myself lost in this world no longer understanding where I am going no longer know my way home, head is constantly spinning no longer understand the meaning of up and down and not only am I blinded in my reality but in my dreams filled with nightmares that bring me to hell every night but I couldn't bring myself to say I don't deserve it