I awaken, shrouded by darkness and suffocating walls,
reaching for you before dreams may recall reality.
You are gone, nothing but the ghost of a sullied desire,
an echo of what once was devours my tattered soul.

So much I took for granted,
now, with great sadness I regret.

The familiar feel of you is always near, calling...
tempting me with promising lies of new faithfulness.
Memories of the calming essence upon the depths
of my very being, as I inhaled your intoxicating scent.
A corrupting tang lingers, as my lips recall the caress
of your fiery, slim form, which still, I so desire.

I cast you aside, longing for a more virtuous path.
I willingly **** myself to purgatory's questionable grace,
denying this eternal craving to beg your swift return.
For your heated embrace foretells a perilous and certain doom.

Sleeplessness reigns, I long for that which has been forsaken.
I gaze upon your empty, crumpled husk upon my ***** floor.
I tossed you there callously, a reminder of your true nature,
poisoned honey sweetening a lover's final meal.

Tobacco’s curse leaves nothing of value
only a dying, crying need for hope and redemption.

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