i've realized
that i can no longer hear
your heart beating
even with my ear to
your chest

i've come to see
why you no longer seek
the warmth i give
to your cold skin and
calm hands

i've searched
for the sound of your love
in thousands of songs
a glance of desire
in many eyes

i've become
desperate to find myself
reflected in your mind
in your writing or inked
to the bone

but i have nothing
no hope to cling onto
that believes in your truths
gives meaning to your silence
and absence of heat

i have nothing
to listen for when
you hold me close at night
no lust fleeting languidly
across your lips

no comfort before i sleep
only waning words
and quiet evenings
with your omnipresent
impatience to say
goodbye

i've realized
i have you no longer