White dress
Black heels
I pretended I did not live in the gutter
Company
I smiled on cue
I am someone I told myself
10:27- my life as an actor ended
I hoped I'd receive gifts of a brand new person
10:27 my eyes start to scream
"I am lying"
"I am a beast"
"I cannot laugh"
"I am sour and full of hate"
My eyes are strong and honest
The time was up
Everyone sees me
I am ignored
The  lie that I am festers inside of me
She comes out to play on nights like these
When my body craves companionship
I fall asleep promising myself I will never pretend not to be a gutter