Darkness engulfs me.
Alone with the thoughts
that can't set me free.
Here, in my bed,
I am drowning.
I put on a smile.
It's only skin deep.
Wait until everyone else is gone.
When I am alone, then you'll see
how something inside me is gone.
As the sun disappears behind the mountain,
the light you thought emanated from me
will slowly dim and go out.
The light was only a reflection,
changing as my surroundings change.
My strength wavers.
Truth is, I have little.
Happiness is a constant struggle to maintain
for nothing seems to matter
when your heart is empty.
For what in the world matters?
What in this world is real?
I gasp for breath.
Depression is suffocating.
Save me.
Someone help me.
In the dark I stumble my way to another's bed.
And in the dark, I touch her arm.
I see her chest fall and rise.
Breath
Drawing strength, I recognize
This, this is the reason why.
She, my sister, means everything to me.
Not only her, but everyone
is someone to interact with, to lean on
to love.
Here, now I am weak.
But she may also
find times full of darkness.
I strengthen her,
She strengthens me.
With that I turn to the window.
Hope is not such a stranger anymore.
It returns with a single touch.
Breathing it in, I close my eyes,
invite light back into my soul,
I welcome
In the sunrise.