I wish sometimes that it would all go as planned
That I'd never fall for you again
That i would be shown as much effort as i give

I wish that you would stop being so barren
I wish that u would tell me, when, where, how to fix it

Because this ..
Whatever this is  ..
Its driving me insane ..

To the point where worrying about u instead of me is normal
To the point where talking to u is like dragging a nail against a chalkboard

It becomes painful and obsolete
So ..
I'm ignoring u at the moment

Because even though i care..actually a hell of a lot more than you do..

I can't become obsolete too..