I let a stranger take.me.home.
(ihaventdonethatbefore)
I needed-to-try-to-feel-
...s o m e t h i n g
some//thing
...other.than the [void]
ofyou

Her photos and books
Saint Christopher on the refrigerator
//points.to.connect.upon.//
so quiet and thoughtful
so pretty with-no-clothes-on
^but^she^isn't^you
...andmybodyknew ~it was a lie~
(whileweweretheretangled)
faking said engagement
...the knot in my throat//knife in my ribs//
Only I know; how my body
~ t r e m b l e s ~ at. simply.the.
thought.
of.
your.
...smile.

She gave me her number,
...watching me l  e  a  v  e
at 5-in-the-morning
...but I don't even know/what/to/call/her.