My biggest mistake was
recording the noises only I heard.
I knew they weren't real;
I wasn't hearing them correctly.
My biggest mistake was
pretending I was alright when I wasnt.
People began to blur over my feelings,
as if always being 'alright' meant I did not have any.
My biggest mistake was
thinking, even for a moment, that I could.
That I could fathom any bit of the situation,
and spit it out so it made sense.
My biggest mistake was
believing that I had even
made a mistake in the first place.