Maybe next time I'll do some reading. I need a desk to sit at. Less sugar. a new job, more time, enough money, a pet, a reason, a real vacation, a better idea, another chance, another bottle of wine, a bit of silence and some time alone; then, maybe, just maybe, things will start to look a bit better. Right now though, the cloud is too dark to see through and what little silver lining I can see is tarnished.