be aware of me be afraid of me be terrified ****** look at me from a safe distance i am the open wound of child abuse though i am no longer a child it has not yet stopped i was left alone and now i am not only an open wound but a rotting and festering wound
look at me but do not make a sound do not breathe do not even say a word i do not want your apologies or your ******* excuses because i know that you saw the cuts and the blood the bags under my eyes and eventually the jutting bones of my hips my ribs like cage bars struggling to rip through stretched taut skin the bumps of my spine and you did not hug me anymore perhaps you were afraid of hurting yourself on my sharp edges
and i got so cold all skin and bones mostly bones at that point even a hand to the hot burner did nothing to stem the chill and my stick thin arms elbows like bowling ***** could not wrap around myself hard enough and close enough to chase away the icy winds i shivered for so long but you took no heed
i am still shivering but now i have become accustomed to it it is all i know so now i do nothing to stop the chill