Walking through crowds is an experience equivalent to suffocating
I can’t avoid them even when I’m staring down I’ll see their conniving other halves Black and soulless Empty and treacherous Crawling about near the bottom of my feet Wrapping themselves around my ankles Never facing a specific way No eyes for me to look at To determine their candor Their abundance of humanity A reassurance that When I turn my back There won’t be a cold, silver dagger Snaking it’s way into my soft, unassuming flesh
I hate the way their faces always demand something from me What the **** is there to give? Whatever’s on your agenda I don’t want to be a part of it I’m a person by nature Seemingly capable of a variety of feelings But I’m an empty carcass by choice I don’t want contact or connection Only a coffee in my hand and the knowledge that the sun will set on another day
Their boisterous laughs, loud voices, spittle projecting from their mouths Group of ditzy girls in front of me Impatient old man behind me All plotting to push off of the sidewalk Disgusting aimless animals It’s always an internal right To get ahead, be ahead, to yell ******* for insulting their bigotry Their infectious god complex Where everyone’s certain their the best All racing towards a cliff foaming at its mouth To taste their massive demise
And you’ll see me trotting along behind With the sewer rats and the lepers Overly aware and alone Ugly and nervous Hateful and uninspired Humbled by the realization That every time somebody told us we could be President We’d laugh and opt for the flask Instead of joining the masses And tearing at our competitions flesh Until we all fell apart Blue ribbon upon us all ****** and plastic