step 1
breathe. calm down as much as you can. this could get difficult so don't let your breathing be another problem. breathe.

step 2
face fact. you are not well so stop pretending to be. you are not well so start trying to be.

step 3
state what you know about yourself. your brain isn't good with memories, and your heart isn't as strong a muscle as you hope it is. so write.

step 4
remember. you made her promise to make you remember her. you said that you will forget her. you said you will be depressed. you said that you do not want to do this, but know that you must.

step 5
double check. i promise i will do all i can to remember her. i will not let myself forget her as simply as i stated it. i will fight. this has to happen, but it's to be alone and not to feel numb and forgetful.

step 6
remember. remember all you can about her. write it all down.

step 7
write.

step 8
remember

step 9
**repeat from 1