Love was something you didn’t give.
Or maybe you gave it to me and I pushed it away…
But why would I?

I think your anger pushed me away,
Yes! It did!
I was there, I was your best friend at one point and you were mine…
What happened Mom?

God, I was SO angry, but I loved you.
It is the worst pain to feel in this world and now you are gone and I…

I am here.
Drowning in my own guilt…
Oh, how I wanted to fix things…
How I wanted to love you in person instead of in my mind…

I wanted a mother, you wanted a daughter, and we were so late…
We just waited to long.

& we drifted apart over the long, ******, and painful years...

by V.I.V. , 2015