I will tell you something dear
you are not as ****** up as you think.
You have broken memories & a guilty conscious.
That is a simple fix, honey.
Be the person you want everyone to believe you are,
then you will have to stop acting.
You will have to stop acting dear, for you see
you will then be the one you try to get everyone else to see.
I do not see you in the light you see yourself.
I see you in the light of someone else.
The one I saw laughing at the bar
& the one that was seen by the sea.
That, my love, is who you are
when you are not trying so **** hard
to guard yourself from your happiness.

I have seen the one you want to be.
& my god it is a beauty.