What do I got, I HAVE...huh? and this is where Im at now in the middle of a pawn shop selling the gold from some dead relatives past life- SCREAMING inside my head, POUNDING away at my insides and my muscles ache from a hard days baked goods-  She winces just a little and enough that I notice her jealousy of my wit and declaration of her character flaws- WHO ARE YOU? she calls out but I don't listen and the pathways I once knew now are drowned out by the fear that another soul close to me withers away-moves on- blocks me out-so far gone