under a spell
as though my very nerves
were captivated
by something so wrong
something so unwell
I shudder in the doorway
of an epiphany
but denial
calls so much louder
all these question marks
etched in my skin
my very being
I know nothing
I know absolutely nothing
of who I am
or who I should be
or what this world
really means
and I draw shuddered breaths
to awaken sheltered eyes
these dreams are
lying to me
I dont want to lie anymore
get up
get up
get up