Right now I am not so sure that I really even know
The way that the surface may actually appear
The roads ahead may bend and break
Shifting me off of my course to parts unknown
For the time that I have I'll just sit back and try to enjoy this ride
Never really necessarily seeking a place to reside
Just living the moments trying to make the best of each situation

I have packed and locked away all of these emotional bags that I have
Taken the mental cobwebs right out of my mind
Left shattered little pieces of the past behind
Set out so desperately seeking the path to another life
Though at times the road may leave you feeling so alone
I know the truth, that there is always more room to be grown
I know the truth, that these roads can take you anywhere

At times I will admit I feel as though I have gone and lost my way
The fog settles and beguines to touch the ground
darkness falls and beguines to spread all around
Still with my will I will take this journey one step after another
Never letting go of hope with each new back slide
I'll light up the way with a box of matches and tank of gas
A line made of fire my demons could never pass

I have felt it from the time that I first set out
I've just never been the one to shout
I always find them crawling right at my back
Climbing out of the corners preparing for any chance of an attack
The second that I let my guard down
They will take me to the bottom left to drown
Set behind in a self destructive way
Honestly this is no place for me to play

I will not let it draw me back in
I would not even know where to beguine
I hold no resentment for the past
even though I'd love it if the moments would last
But there is no need to look back in shame
There is nowhere to place any of the blame
What a beautiful memory now that we have

I'll have expression painted across my face
It is not safe the ways that I think
Crossing off existence with the flutter of every blink
I have made this life what it has come to be
I am so sorry that sooner I could not see