I thought you said it would be okay
Every little thing, is gonna be alright
But when I come home
Instead, theyr so dead
With the weight of the boulders pressing
Down on this house
Its crumbling

I push things
Get them out of my mind
Have since I was little
Squeezing my eyes shut tight
When he came home in the dead of the night
Please let mommy be okay
The screaming haunts me

In my daydreams
My lack of focus
Frustrates me every second
So I shut it out
Close my mind
But now the haze is clearing

I thought it was different
But people never change
Jail doesn’t change a thing
The threat of life sentences
Don’t change a single, thing
But I cant teach

The lesson he should learn
Because though he gives us nothing
Without him
we have even less
No home, no education
Streets

Are glistening with the rain
My tears finally stream
And they flood the sidewalks
With their anger and fear
And stupidity
Never trust the liar

Ive always told myself
Nobody, can be trusted
But I opened up
And I let it go
Floored it
But now im crashing

As I lay pinned between the tree and radiator
I look up at the stars
Do you know how many wishes
Iv sent up to the sky
Black and blue as my body
As the stars glisten mockingly

“hunny, im home!”
Take a long look around
At the rusting support posts
And decaying furniture
This house is not a home
This house is broken

We all need, somebody to lean on
And I had you
You left me at the worst time
And it keeps going down
I hate that I needed to hear your voice
Before I attempt another goodbye

But I know it is selfish
Don’t worry
The knife is staying shallow
The pills are the correct dosage
But my tears are overflowing
At the facts laid on the table

Its too late for protection
Services asking all the wrong questions
Has he done this before?
No ****
Im glad we contacted the captain
Of town obvious

A few more years, ill have a job
Mother will too
Maybe ill tell my secret
Or maybe ill publish
The lies I was told
With the dignity I sold

I want to forgive
But I wont
And to hell will I ever forget
Because the lies the lovers have told me
Will never heal
Because my lips are sealed