I've cried,
Used a mask,
Lost feeling
And felt too much.

I've overslept,
Under slept,
Starved
But even binged.

I've cut,
But was too ashamed
To let it heal by itself,
So that I quickened the pace.

I've almost drowned
In more ways than the one,
Unfortunately for me
Neither quite hit the spot.

I've tried so hard,
To beat the pain
By my own means,
But my inflicted pain
Never hurts
Like the pain I didn't ask for,
It just made me more numb.