I’d ask myself everyday where I would ever find it
after closing hundreds of open doors
everything told me that my repressed love
lied in whatever I could receive
if material could ever materialize in me
an emotion never before felt,
something one could only feel from music,
laughter, learning, gratitude for life
but I realized after being far from my love
after running time and time again,
hoping to find outside what rested within me,
that love is what I have always been
love is inside of me
it just requires time and space to ignite