For the days that I have been alone I am scared
Scared that I will always be alone
Is there a reason that it is this way
Have I done something to deserve this
Does it not matter that I have tears streaming down my face
The only ones that are ever noticed are the ones with the smiles and bright eyes
I guess I have found what I need to do
I need to cast away the self I know and put on a mask and costume
This mask and costume are the shields that protect me
Keep me safe inside the walls I have created
I continually push people away even though they wish to be close, or at least that's what they say
Those people that say they are there for you but then leave in a split second and try to consume you
They make you feel not good enough to be here and this can cause one to think
Maybe I am not
If it weren't for me everything would be fine and everyone would be happy
This is scary to think about but what if what I have found is  true
*They don't want me