Sunday school never sang me the song of the night terrors. Never taught me how to wake up from disaster to calm. My heart races as I continue to pray. The bible a book in which neither fact nor fiction but figurative scenarios that were made to be the peace for those who know there's nothing that can save us. We just wanted a salvation for mistakes. a home in which our wrongs were forgiven. And each story has my eyes rolling in circles and my faults screaming for release. The author was my entire life in a bucket hanging on a tight rope, step by step i prayed to fall. Father, I didn't mean it. I was bent on a bargain between heaven and hell before I could even say I'm sorry. Penance could never cleanse me. My mind is so filthy I could be 6 feet deep in a shower and still be dirtied. Amen amen amen I want another chance but when your skin is all dried up, purgatory is where you rest.