last week i spent the night with you
i opened up to you
i cried in your bed as you stroked my back
and whispered kisses behind my ear
i fell asleep listening to your heartbeat
but when it was time for you to go to sleep
you called me a cab and gave me a handful of quarters
because god forbid you waste a 20 on me
you walked me out and cringed when i kissed u goodbye
so it puzzles me that last night i was surprised by the way you treated me.

you said come outside with us
you said
there's not enough chairs
sit on my lap baby
wanna have a *******
cmon share the love
alex needs his share too
so when you kissed me i ignored him honking my ****.
when you said trust me i did.
when alex threw me over his shoulder
and wouldn't put me down despite my screaming, i trusted you.
when he threw me on the bed and said
go ahead and get started austin, i'll be back in 10 minutes
i trusted you.

when he left and we were alone you saw the tears i was holding back.
you told me to let them fall and then kissed them away.
you asked to talk in my car.
i trusted you
in my car i said too much.
i finally looked at you and realized your eyes were full of lust. i trusted you.
i hate myself because i trusted you.
yet i'm still puzzled as to why you haven't spoken to me since.