We would stay up late talking on the phone
He thought I was beautiful
He thought I was amazing
He loved me first
“I remember watching you in the street thinking you were the cutest thing ever. You were so happy and beautiful.”
He held me when I was cold, even though he was shivering harder than me
He walked with me everywhere
We were perfect
He was gorgeous
He had blue eyes
He had an amazing smile
He had long black hair
I saw our baby
He was my first kiss
I dreamt about him: I saw his funeral, he was in NC, he came back to me in the mall, he told me he forgave me and would always love me
He told Kevin to look out for me
He made me happy and forget my sorrows
He made the world go round when I thought it would stop
He picked me up when I was down
I miss him a lot, guess I always will
He was my superman
He was afraid of spiders
His nickname was ***** because he was ***** miles
His number was 45
He wanted to name our kid *****, but we settled on naming our dog *****
I’m still going to name my first dog *****
He wanted Stephan to live with us, because we were going to have a huge house
I was going to be a model and him a huge sports star
I wanted to be a teacher but he didn’t want boys looking at me because I was so hot
He helped me lose then find god
He taught me what true love was, what everlasting love was, what “even death couldn’t end my love” love
January 6, 1992
December 4, 2006
He didn’t get to see his 15th birthday, or any more
He didn’t get his license
I never got to kiss him without braces
After our first kiss I said I wouldn’t kiss him till I got my braces off because I was worried about hurting him
He wasn’t at my grad party
He didn’t take me to prom
He didn’t get to walk with the rest of us
He looks down at me from the brightest star in the sky, the one that I used to wish on, till I lost him
It hurts
It gets easy, but gets really hard
I never got to say good bye
I never got to say I’m sorry
I was going to marry him
I was going to grow old with him
He was going to be my first everything
First kiss check
First love check
First everything else…uncheck
First broken heart check
He was my inspiration to start writing
He liked blue
“Tonight” will forever remind me of him
He called me crying once, worried what he did would come back around, karma
I broke his heart
But he forgave me
I feel him when I’m lost, when I’m sad, when I need him
“Stars are a beautiful ending”