you're the chucks i lace up on lazy days
the sun permeating the back of my head
the spoon surrounding my body
and i miss you when we're apart.

but it's so much
at once
all the time
you.
sometimes i feel like time and space closed in so quickly
because all i see is you.

in the dark
your delighted smile when i fall back into your arms
the little mewling noises that drop when i kiss your cheek
(and your neck, and your lips, when i caress your face)
and it burns it burns
when you're inside me and i don't think i can take anymore
but you're there above me
wanting-needing-loving.

i can't control the words that float through my head
each drawn out stare
soft giggle
you know there's something going on in the back of my mind
and you don't take my resistance as an answer.
my needs, wants, the pining thoughts that circulate
you want to know everything.

and how can you understand me so easily?
how.
it frustrates and fascinates me
pleases me
that you just know.

when your hands dig into my hips
and your teeth dig into my collarbone
i don't know what else to call this
but love.

you say love isn't defined
it's just a feeling.
but i feel so many things
and not all of them last.
not all of them are deep and undying
and forever like you whispered to me last night.

over-analyzation
makes me question
our declarations.

i just know i
need you so much closer.