when you work with words
they hurt you worse.
some startling things can happen by
disheartening dreams through marketing schemes
- and I would've dropped out if need be
but instead I spent time and bought a degree
telling myself, debt doesn't bother me
- it's like a motivator
so when she left
I  got on the next train to Vegas -
mentally so to speak, a vacation
in hopes to hit the jackpot
maybe pay off some of the burden I racked up -
but wait, back up.
I can't just bet on a lottery -
- that behavior is odd to me
I like games I can influence and see new ends
because this sea we're in?
There's sharks in the darkness! -
they'll not give us the chance to dart and
rip us apart all heartless - and then
I begin to wonder if this
sinking feeling
is how you start the process.