Loneliness Fills the air inside
My lungs fill with despair
This place inside I have created
Not of my own doing but a by-product
it has a taste like rusty metal
When I leave it goes with me
It has become a part of me
I am comfortable with it now
It is now my only friend
I have forgotten how to be around others
My friend likes it that way
And loneliness keeps me that way
Making me feel safe it deceives me
There are time I embrace it and breath it in
Other times I try to hide from it
But I cant escape it
Every time I take a breath it's there
Waiting, calling out to me like a lover
I have forgotten who I am
I think I have become something else all together
I cry out to God "Free me from this curse!"
I don't want to feel this, But no response
Lord! Lord! take me! I cry
Even if I have to suffer I will
Just to be free from it I would do anything
The taste I cant get rid of the taste
The bile rises in me and it's getting harder to eat
Food has no flavor anymore
I cant remember the last time I've taken any
I am poured out like water
Wasting away in my own private hell
My soul want's to escape this sinful flesh
I no longer see the world as I did
My world that I see is black and empty
like the night only it doesn't renew itself
Time is running out yet I'm not afraid
I am ready for it It ends here
I'm the last of my kind
It's over now there is emptiness