I can't be apathetic, frantic, engulfed in the hectic, overtaken by stasis, stuck in this tantric, ****** by life position.
ANd i tiptoe to the edge, looking both backward and forward, wondering which direction i go, will i explode? am i already, is ..is... this...ohhh my God, what the **** is happening ..is this, is this it?
But if i sit here, maybe it won't end. Maybe i can hold onto the pleasure... I end with the release I live with the questions, what was it worth? can i create something worth anything?