The waves roll over me.

Things seem alright and then suddenly

I find I can barely breathe.

I feel so lost and so lonely.

I sink to the bottom of

this ocean of things I’ve loved

but never were quite enough

to keep my head up above

the surface of these dark waves.

I close my eyes and I pray

that one day I will be saved

from this ocean that I have made.

I struggle and try to swim

but I’m just dragged under again.

if only I could find a friend

to save me from this state I’m in…..

I’m drowning

in my own despair.

I scream out

but there’s no one there.

I don’t know

if I can go on.

I’m so tired

and my will’s not strong.

I’m tossed and turned by the waves

as the shore slips farther away

and all the light starts to fade

as the night overtakes the day.

I fear I will always be

alone in this endless sea.

This may be all there is for me.

No one can give me what I need.

So I’ll keep drifting farther out,

slowly drowning in my own doubt

of myself and what life’s about

and wishing someone would hear my shouts.

I’m waiting

for a light to show

me if there

is a place to go.

I keep swimming

and searching for

a sign that

there is something more.