It’s with me now
Like never before
It makes not a sound
But to secrecy I swore

History I try to forget
Forever haunts my soul
Everyday, hidden secrets
It’s what they don’t know

I’m left to drown
In cold and unforgiving stillness
Sin has pushed me down
Mercy has shown me no access

Oh what’s to lose,
That’s to give
Internally abused
Wanting not to live

Attempt to rise an inch
Expect to fall for eternity
Making sure not to wince
I hide away my security

My future is unfolding
Yesterday I denied
Engraved in gold
Is guilt I try to hide