I smoke, a secret
I breathe, a secret
I exhale my worries
While you watch my memories burn.
The world around me smell of heavy charcoal.
And my chest is locked -
in a series of waves
Carrying my thoughts in
a sonic beat.

I love, a secret.
My life, an echo of a stranger's
wail.
I sit down, a perfect circle
She whispers these precious things
and I'm hyponotized
in my numb state of mind.

I drink, a secret.
five glasses and a bucket of ice.
I pray, a secret.
A kaleidoscope of change.
My heart beats, a secret
I listen in, and it tells me
nothing -
I want to hear.

I dream, a secret
of a land to call home -
or just a story
to call my own.