Im losing grip on what I want who I want and why I want it My conscience's hand is climbing a mountain but its slipping ever-weakening Ive gone through many Life experiences only to find that they are either false or fake. nothing is real anymore nothing has substance life is taking a turn for the worst and I don't know if my mind can hold on Ive wanted this life for as long as i can remember. but my mind is letting go my heart cant stand anymore pain I have to find the good in the smallest things while everyone else can find it wherever. I got a girl that keeps me waiting and Im a lonely boy i have time for no one because the man calls me he says get your weak lazy *** off that chair and go to work but only when we can afford you when will it become the other way? when will I start eating right again when will I go to sleep at a reasonable hour when will people stop ignoring me and care for me as much as I care for them when will this hole in my chest fill Why is there a hole in my chest?! People dont genuinely care about you. The "I dont give a ****" people are taking over and the "Let me help you" people are dying off What happened to courtesy what happened to respect. most importantly what happened to communication I am guilty of it too. but nothing like the fools of my generation im losing grip on what i thought i was preparing myself for my whole life: being a good person its getting harder and harder Im beginning to understand how people can go so crazy how the world can bring you down so much that all you want to do is destroy destroy until one day all those pieces magically reappear even though you know they wont. Im losing grip on how to live a real life. On how to talk to people without using lol or *** On how anyone in this world can afford to take care of themselves let alone another person Im losing grip on all the things i wanted to become and things i wanted to do. the fingers of my mind slipping off the cliff falling ever falling