i was a rundown house
with missing shutters and a shaky foundation
broken windows and a kicked in door
then you came along
those blue eyes making me want to crumble into myself in a heap of butterflies and sweaty palms
but i stood there before you
your hands did nothing
because to you, i was perfect the way i was
the way i came to you
it was your words that held me up more than i ever could
they were sweet nothings
but they were the farthest from nothing
for they meant everything to me
i let you in and i was yours
vacancy and all
i promised i'd protect you with all i had
and you promised that you'd never abandon me

but then you got used to me
and you thought i needed fixing
because my current state was not enough for you
so you up and left
no notice
no note
and god, did my beams threaten to break
my heart wanted to fall through the creaky floorboards and shatter
just like those windows you told me were beautiful in a haunting way
but now you're haunting me
and it's not beautiful
i nearly fell apart into a pile of rubble in an empty lot

but i knew i was worth more than any ******* resident
i won't lean on you
on anyone
as cracked as they may be,
my bones are the only foundation i need
keep your tools
i may be broken,
but i don't need fixing
because the weather may have worn me down,
but that shows i have the strength to remain standing even after the roughest of storms
after you
and ******* it,
that's enough
for me