It was 4:30 when I got the call.

I knew immediately.

Father,
were you finally at peace?
Last night when you fell asleep, did you know what you'd do in the morning?

The darkest parts of you make up the whole of me.
I've known this my entire life.
I will sleep inside this grief and mourn you everyday.
You and I were more alike.

2 hours later and this does not feel real.
The space between us exists as it ever has.
And I just hope you know how truly loved you were.