i wait for her to ask,
so i can tell her about the poems i write
that never get read,
or the feelings i have
that never get shared.
so i can show her the drawings
that exist, because of her,
or the photos and books i've set aside all these years,
that made me think of her.
so i can let her know about the light
i let burn, throughout each night,
just incase the dreams where she and i are together,
become too real.
so i can tell her how i wait all day,
sometimes until 2, 3, or 4 in the morning,
vigilante and prepared,
just for a call, a message, a kiss.
so i can have an excuse to drive to the airport,
leave my car in LONG TERM PARKING,
buy a one-way ticket,
tip the air hostess for a glass of water,
pay a taxi to step on it,
and show up at her doorstop,
with nothing but devotion, passion,
and a week's worth of clothes.
but at least
so i can tell her
that i love her,
without it sounding weird.