it’s been a few weeks now,
since i last
played poker
and i’m starting
to miss it,
as childish
as that sounds,
i miss it being my only thought when i woke up, my only thought
when i went to sleep,
how it always use to be
the main topic
of a conversation, of an argument,
i miss how it made me feel, the winning days,
the losing days,
they’ve all become a blur now, and its not the
happiness or depression that i miss,
but the feelings,
they seem so rare now,
maybe i’m just
a
*******
degenerate, or maybe
i’m just human