I said it, I know
A million times or more
And I know you can’t trust me, but I’ll say it some more
I love, more than anything else
I know I messed up, and **** I can’t forget
Everything I could have done to prevent it
All those times
All those laughs
I guess they’re all gone now
I wish I had some hope for the future
Some drive to live
I wish I had something else
Something for me to give
I’ve wasted all my time, I’ve wasted all my life
I want to die, but I can’t
I mess up so often I don’t know why you haven’t given up yet
I say I’ll change; I try to mean it this time
I don’t know if I can do it
Staying alive is hard enough when I’m happy
I might as well go burn in hell
For all the good I’m doing here
Hurt pain and more mistakes
They hurt me more than they could every say
But I’m still wrong it’s all my fault,
Hate me more and say I’m wrong
A million and one ******* times
It’ll never be the same, oh it’ll never be the same
They could forgive me, but why would they try?
They’d me grab a gun and die
It’ll never be the same, I’ll always feel insane
I walk around the earth like I’m having fun,
When all I wants a chance to make it all numb
It happened once twice way too many times
I almost felt like I was alright
One mistake and then I’m done
Why am I the only one who can’t feel numb?
I just want to end it, end it please
But no I can’t, I can’t end it here
I’ll make it better, to god I swear
When no one else could ******* care
You’re here even though you don’t want to be,
I still don’t know what you see in me

When they did something bad, it’s still alright
I have to put down the knife
Forgive them for every single thing,
Ruining the one thing that made me happy
Promised and broke it a thousand times
But I should’ve have trusted you?
Give me a reason why
I know I’m ugly, I look like a ****
While you’re sitting on a throne as a hypocrite
I’m the one who’s wrong; you’re perfect in every way
I must not be able to feel any pain
You’re perfect in every single way, call yourself ugly just to get my praise
Lie just to get away from me, laugh in my pain; in glee as I bleed
I can’t fix anything, you never wanted me too
Lied just to make yourself seem cool
Crushing every ounce of what I had
But of course I have no right to be mad
You’re still perfect in every way, and now I’m the one who’s ******* insane
I told a million and one times
Now you believe me, after all this time
As I walk along with haunted eyes
You haven’t eaten in a day, and I supposed to believe you again?
You betrayed my trust like I did yours, but only I can see your flaws
I see every single wrong thing you did, but say a single one and I’m a hypocrite
Tell everyone I cared about everything I’ve done,
Of course now you think you’ve won
Lost all trust and lost your love,
Aren’t you glad I’m so ****** up?