I won't
think about the what ifs.
it will drive me crazy and keep me up all night.
I'll swallow back the words and push away the thoughts,
I'll pretend to forget you.
Moving on.
But I know I'll fall right back into my old habits.
There you will be
foremost on my mind.
Taunting me.
And then I will purge you again
just to bring you;
all of you
back in to all of me.
It's a vicious circle
and the worst part
is you're back to living a straight line.