I wish I never had to write Pain never consumed me To the point where my fingers Spill lightning onto paper Because my heart pounds like thunder Making my mouth unable to speak these words That I am only compelled to write on paper A storm I never wanted to ever feel Ever. A storm I promised Iβd never have to bow my head to Or brace myself against the winds A storm that screams so loud that I cannot And that I cannot breathe For fear of bringing more of that storm into my body To shake my soul like a boat on the tide Capsize it and sink it Deep to the bottom To fall and fall Where itβs a relief to hit the bottom So only it could stop Yet unlike that ship my soul Has to suffer twice Swimming back up and still drowning Eternally searching for that spot of light That spot of hope That is still far after when my pen leaves the paper Only slightly relieved