The past few days have been hell

shuffling through the file cabinet of my memories

just to find you haunt my dreams

ghastly faint noises of laughter make me nauseous

As we fall into the canal

water so cold i could have been frostbitten from head to toe

Oh how i panicked and told you i couldn't swim

shoes sinking with the weight of water and muscles stiff with ice

as we get out the sun and the warmth of your smile warm me

We walk back to your house full of ourselves carrying our clothes in the golden haze of fall

as we get back inside you grab me a towel and we spend the night watching cheesy movies and napping

It always feels real always and my heart sinks a little when i wake up and it was just a dream of all the ways we used to be.

Ive moved on but for some tormenting reason or another my mind likes to taunt itself.

part of me wishes that of all the things ive forgotten over the years this could be one of them