I can quite confidently say that I am a smart girl who thinks before she acts and "makes good choices" and always remember to brush her teeth. But for you, I become crazy irrational unpredictable irresponsible. Everything I am not. And maybe I cry myself to sleep over you simply because you make me feel different than I know how to feel on my own. And without you I am just a shy, silly little girl who does what she is told, and nothing else. Because I can quite confidently say that I am a smart girl, but whenever you want me, I am there. And whenever you don't, I am impatiently waiting wanting wishing. It's unhealthy, it's pathetic. But I can't change it, and I can't help but to mess it up every single time.