I didn't know
I couldn't foresee
How much I would hate you
Each word that leaves your pale lips
Grinds into my gritted teeth
Pinches at my unwanting ears
And pulls at my unspoken tongue
Willing me to conjure a flame ridden truth, your way
But I will hold back
As you will only make me feel crazy
Crazy for feeling
Crazy for not wanting you near
Insane for stating your presence now makes me sick
But that is the truth
They are my feelings
And you will invalidate them