I almost texted you last night.
My fingers were wrapped around my phone.
I wanted to reach out to you,
So I wouldn't be alone.
But then I remember the last thing that you said.
You love her too much to leave, but if she were gone.
You would choose me instead.
I don't think you realize how much I was in pain,
All those times I waited for you.
Knowing you wouldn't come, fearing I was insane.
She wasn't there then, and I let you in.
I see now I was foolish; I wish I had turned you away.
But it's too late to pretend that it didn't begin.
My efforts were worthless--
No. They were wasted.
If only I had known you weren't worth this.