they keep growing
there is nothing i can do to stop it
i think so hard and try to find reason
to why i didn’t pay more attention in the beginning
people tell me it’s still the beginning

i see those moments now
the ones i will cherish forever
and remember long from now
i see them
i hope they see me
for who i was and who i try so hard to be
not for who i am now
hardworking
unavailable
exhausted
i try i really try

there is one thing
one thing i know as clear as glass
it’s that your not here
you never really were
those moments that i’m seeing
i’m seeing them all for myself
you will never feel
never see
never know
how they grow
how they hurt
how they happy
how they cry
how they eat
how they sleep
you’ll never know

those bring tears to my eyes
i am strong and realize that’s your loss
not mine nor their’s…
i’m here
i perform
i am reliable
i am responsible
i have always been here
i will always be here

-Jenny Jen Cat