I want to feel the cold and let it seep within
Until my blood is a slush in my veins
Then I will thaw myself out by the fire
and pretend that the warmth is you

And when the spring comes and the world is alive
And the breeze brushes my hair to the side
And the grass tickles my arms
I’ll pretend that it’s all you

I’ll go out at night in the dark
And let strangers hold my hand and make me smile
And maybe I’ll forget who they are
Because I’ll only see you

When my heart echos with the pain of the past
And the future holds no more room for us
I’ll close my eyes and dream a while
Because in my dreams there’s you

And when I finally realize I’m holding on
To a ghost who is terrorizing me
Who I let drown me and pull me down
Then maybe I’ll let go of you

Until then I think I’ll sit here
And wonder how I could ever be so naive
As to think that a fragile thread could never break
As to think that I would never lose you

How silly it seems now in hindsight
Wondering if this pain is real or if it’s what I think I should feel
Shouldn’t I just know?
I can do better than you.